Today’s appointment at Dr.K’s was interesting to say the least. I asked D to come and we brought the two boys because I get an ultrasound with each visit and I thought they might like to see the baby.
I didn’t use the doppler before I left to alleviate my ultrasound anxiety so I was really nervous. She put the wand on my belly and I immediately saw movement (phew!), then in my nerves I blurted out to her “Penis or vagina…if you see anything recognizable don’t hesitate to call it out”
She looked at me with her eyebrow raised and told me it was sort of early to tell. She continued looking around and then I SAW IT! I saw what Borat would describe as the Vageen…yep, it’s a GIRL. Believe me when I tell you no one was more surprised than me. I honestly couldn’t fathom my husband creating a little girl after three boys.
Some other interesting things were discussed with Dr. K. I was asked to bring the placenta pathology from Xavier, the Maternal and Perinatal death review and a few other reports that he had asked me to bring. We went over the last week I was pregnant with Xavier including what my OB had told me just four short days before he was born. Dr. K looked at my DH and I and told us she was negligent and that I received sub-standard care. What validation to be given after a year and a half of doubt and of blaming myself.
I am beginning appointments every two weeks beginning my next appointment. Dr. K is concerned about a few things, not that I have anything for him to be concerned about, but more that he wants to make sure if there is anything he can nip it in the bud. He is making a point to do the ultrasound at my next appointment himself. He is interested in looking at my placenta himself rather than in stills in my file after the fact.
The problem with him wanting to see me more frequently is that it freaks me out. FREAKS.ME.OUT. If everything was OK and “normal” why would he want to see me more frequently. I believe he telling me the truth, that there is nothing wrong…but it still makes me wonder. He was clear about the fact that I have incredible blood flow to the placenta and he seemed pretty impressed with that (so proud of my placenta) and that he is hopeful that it will continue to remain in that way.
So that’s that…placenta is good, blood flow good and PINK instead of the blue I was so sure of….